LIFE: the ever changing way of perception

29 April 2007
2028, Sunday
Condo Room: B-10-02

Out of so many standards I studied and came across, I dread the one on my title the most. Other than IAS 10 in the morning, I spent one WHOLE day doing this dumb standard. (Okay, with interruptions in between, as I was online on my MSN, couldn’t help it xD) But, ARGH. Dumb standard!!! Oh wait, not really. It’s just me. Don’t know why I dread it so much since P2.5. It’s like.. Argh.. Don’t know lah xD I keep getting the calculations wrong!! Wrong in class, wrong the last time I revised it, wrong when I did it again just now. How many times can I go wrong on the same thing lah… =( And, I don’t really like the contingently issued shares. So annoying!!! Was so confused when we did it in class.. >.< Okay enough of complaints xD

I managed to fall asleep at 3am yesterday, after a hearty meal of oats and milk. Certainly it worked ^^ Next time, that’s exactly what I’m gonna do when I can doze off, which happens all the time xD Fat lah like this, sleep after eating >.< Anyways, I didn’t finish the Thomas Crown Affair. Don’t know lah. The girl not pretty enough xD No, rather, the girl looks too old lah. I wanna watch Smallville so badly~~~ And can’t wait for the new Heroes again~~~ That Suresh Morhinder or Morhinder Suresh (Don’t know lah xD) is so cool. Like Professor X like that xD And the way he speaks.. I just like the accent so much. Then, I like Claire Bennet. So pretty ^^ And the black guy, who can block other people’s powers one. Forgot what is his name liao.. And and and Hiro! So cute! <3

You know, I was really thinking just now. One whole day no class.. so sien!! If only I got a car~ Muahahahaha.. Used to always be able to borrow one. But then now.. Sigh.. Nick, see I actually do miss you ;p Can’t wait for my new Vios. M’sia so slow lah~ Wanna book also takde =.=" No classes until 7th when here comes our "Royal Highness His Majesty" again xD Until then, I shall be busy with standards, standards and more standards @_@" 

Can’t wait for Spiderman 3 and the Pirates of Carribean (I hope I got the spelling right?) So long never watch movies at the cinema already, since xsocamDC can always supply me xD Thank you Soul! =)

Feel like mamak-ing lah.. Sei lor. Whole day eat rubbish only. Sleep late late every night. What a healthy life I lead! >.< Later pimples come out all over again. Can die. Fat-ness!!!! Oh yeah, I think I found the underlying reason for my score in P3.1. It’s proven that after all this CRAP posts. I can be the Quenn of Crap. xD So for those who are attempting P3.1 this June. Crap as much as possible and best of luck in crapping! xD

- End of Crap of the Day -

29 April 2007
0109, Sunday
Condo Room: B-10-02

Yes, I’m still up. Didn’t read any standards. I tried IAS 8. But ended up at JCnet. So long never visit it already. And I think I was so blur in my previous posts that I put the day as Friday >< Blur-case, as usual. Trying very very "the" hard to get to sleep. So, ended up with a bowl of oats with thick milk. Hope it helps.. Wah.. if got Starbucks and my beloved Vanilla Latte now, I would agree on giving up sleeping for the night! My dear Vanilla Latte~ I miss you~~~ Okay.. I should stop doing this. CRAZY. CRAZY CRAZY CRAZY. Let’s get back to IAS 8 ><

28 April 2007
2345, Friday
Condo Room: B-10-02

Baobei, ceiling, lappie. Lappie, ceiling, Baobei. Baobei, ceiling, lappie.

I don’t know how many times have I tossed left and right, then right and left, then left and right again, since 2200. Yeah, each time I opened my eyes, if I was on my left, then I’d faced my Baobei (my precious doggie actually); if I was on my back, then I’d faced the ceiling; and if I was on my right, then it would be my table, which ultimately, I’d be looking at the side of my lappie, trying to figure out which song it was playing..

Finally, I just gave lah. And,here I am typing. Very slowly, actually. Don’t know why I am trembling. Did I have an over-dose of caffeine? No, I doubt so. I’ve had more and I didn’t feel this way. I wonder, what am I suffering from? The only logical explanation? Stress. As usual. So cold. Damn, I think I’m falling sick again. Oh no, then I’ll be both mentally and phycially down. No, not now. There’s not much time left. And, my heart is breaking. I hate this feeling. You can say it’s psycological, but I really find it hard to breathe.

I memeng sendiri cari pasal. Dah tau tak mungkin. Masih juga meneruskan.

But it’s really not my fault. Or is it? I really don’t know anything anymore. I can’t tell what’s right or wrong. I can’t even control myself. I really should learn how to meditate. Learn how to control my thinking. What to think and what not to. What to feel. How to feel. If only feelings can be boxed up. I serioulsy need to find such a box. Wrap up all my unwanted feelings and then just concentrate things that are really important. Damn, where’s that box?

I should really find someone to talk, don’t I? Yeah, why not? But I just can’t seem to find an appropriate person. What am I supposed to say anyway? I would only waste their time. They have to study. I shouldn’t be so selfish. If I can’t study, then I can’t. I don’t think I need to bother the others, as well. Oh God, really don’t want to feel this way. The last time I felt like this. Was a long time ago. Long long time ago…

Hmm.. enough of whinning (I don’t know how to spell.. "nn" or "n" only?). Maybe I should read up some IASs. Yeah, read those that don’t need any work of brains. Or are there such standards? Ha-ha. I’m being stupid again, as always.

28 April 2007
2115, Saturday
Condo Room: B-10-02

SO TIRED!!!! Just got back from college. And I realised I have only been awake for like 10 hours today.. Don’t understand why am I so tired >.< What happened to that me, who could tahan sleeping only 3-5 hours per day and yet, still could be as energitic as impossible? Sigh~ Signs of old age!! I mean, what the hack.. Hanif said I look 25!!!! *faints*

Hmm.. been out to college since 12.30pm.. Ms Menon’s class at 2pm.. Walked up and down for the EDC/EFC pack.. =.=" In the end never got the answer also, as it was only ready for the part-timers.. Then somehow, the pack was without Dec 2001 and Jun 2002 questions.. And, I thought I could look at the older questions now, since they are not available from the ACCA website.. Sigh~

Class was until 6.30pm+ there I think.. Can’t remember clealy.. Just knew that she had to rush to pay her tax.. Lol. So cute~ <3 Last day already! Then after class, straight away helped Violet to sort out her 2.5 notes (more like MY notes xD since she photocopied from me). Then, had to teach her IFRS 8 since she missed class, and also IAS 29.. Talked and talked like crazy.. But teaching is fun =) Couldn’t believe when I looked at the time and realised that it was already 9pm! Wow~ so I spoke for like 2 hours non-stop? Not bad man xD Was quite happy with my presentation of IFRS 8 ^^ Didn’t really had to look at the notes except only when I had to compare IAS 14 to IFRS 8.. *happy~*

Now… Wanna watch the Thomas Crown Affair.. I know it’s kinda old.. But I found it from Soul. Thought it should be good.. Lol. Normally stuff from him are good ^^ like Death Note, Joey, Heroes, Thank You for Smoking.. wait, HEROES is the BEST!!!!! Hehehe.. Hope the new Smallville is out~~ ^^ Bah I go watch 1st~

27 April 2007
2240, Friday
Condo Room: B-10-02

Yeap, so sleepy~~~ >.< Just got back from class, like, hmm, nearly an hour ago or so? So tired!! But so many things happened between today and yesterday.. So wanna type a bit xD

1) Wanna reinforce the fact that I was a super coward by walking away from 3.7 Mock. >.< Mock already Mock already and I could do a single question. Yeap, I know. I should just jump out the window. Right here, right now, right next to me. But nah.. ;P

2) How adorable & GILA can that "Brother" in the admin department be? xD I mean, he is GILA lah, but really didn’t know he can be GILA-er than I can be. Lol.

3) Thought 3.5 Mock would be easier.. BUT.. Our "Royal Highness His Majesty" just made it the most confusing paper I’ve ever seen.

4) And I can’t believe how friendly, fun and stupid "QQ" can be! Lol. xD Eh, really lah.. Funny and at the same time stupid lah! Beh-tahan ar~

5) Last, but of course, never the least.. Have you ever see our dear "Rockstar Lecturer" not being himself? Cannot imagine, right? Neither did I xD Too bad last class dy.. Sigh~ Sorry lah if I laughed too much, couldn’t help it! >.<

Okay.. I need to oi-oi dy~ Didn’t have my dose of coffee today.. Good or bad? I don’t know leh.. Nitey nite~

27 April 2007
0016, Thursday
Condo Room B-10-02

I gave up on 3.7 Mock just now, after almost one hour of doing one 15-mark question and staring blankly at all others. Felt like strangling myself for being so stupid that I didn’t even understand a single thing I read on the paper. Strangle me all you want for saying this, it’s the truth. Yes, I know, I’ve gotta seriously do something about already. Gotta stop being a mangkuk (Michael Ezhangoa).

I didn’t get back to the condo after that. Went to follow up on my search for the something that was taken almost 2 years ago. Ended up empty-handed again, after one hour of searching + talking. But, again, that showed me how much I will miss SunwayTES in the near future. People here are just too cute to be true!

Oh yeah, the whole purpose of posting today:

Switchfoot - Dare You to Move

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone’s here
Everyone’s here
Everybody’s watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next
What happens next

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

I dare you to move

I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

I dare you to move

Like today never happened

Today never happened before

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

I guess I’ll stop here then. After Starbucks-ing, I shall try to be more productive.

24 April 2007
0208, Wednesday
Condo Room: B-10-02

Couldn’t make up my mind whether to blog or not. Wanted to sleep, but I don’t think I’m sleepy enough at the moment. Besides, my hair isn’t that dry, yet. Thanks to my super bad habit of always having the feel to was my when it is past 12am. Lol. You can call me hantu all you want ;P

Was doing this IAS 21 question on groups account. Damn. My translation reserve is never right. Even worse, I don’t know how to get the correct answer this time, since the only answer provided did not segregate the reserves in to translation reserve and retained earnings. Damn. But, one thing’s not that bad was that I managed to do it in 47 minutes (",) Yeah, I know, I’m still 2 minutes behind the given time and yet there were mistakes. But, oh well.. at least I didn’t went into an hour like what happened previously. Hope I can do it well in the coming mock.

Later got Mr. Marcus’ class at 0930. Aiyoh, wonder if I can wake up.. If there’s a will, there’s a way. Haha. Yeah right, don’t feel like going for class lah.. But then.. 3.5 worr.. can die ar. I mean it’s not like if it’s 3.6 or 3.7 then I would skip class. As if I would skip classes for fun lah right now xD Even when having perfect attendance, I could still feel blur.. just imagine missing one session. Hmm.. don’t know blur-case for how many weeks later. Lol.

Oh yeah, actually wanted to complain about my new room one. But then, I think i got exhausted of complaining. Lol. So, had to use this consolation - it’s only for another 2 months!!! Man, then where am I gonna move to? Seriously, don’t know lah. Wonder if Mr. Teo would take me for until results are out or not. I’m sure the office could use some help? xD Hopefully? Lol. Oh, nearly forgotten. Talking about how ugly and miserable my room is, I managed to do something that won’t make me feel bored looking out the tiny-weeny small window, which permits me to view only all the cars parked at the "Elephant Walk". I err… decorated my cupboard, which my table is facing xD As to how did I decorated it.. Hmm, you’ve gotta see it for yourself to find it entertaining. Haha. Really! Let me put it this way - I get to small each time I look up from my notes lah xD

Damn. This unit so damn dirty lah. So many insects one. There’s one flying around the place right now. Yikes~ DIGUSTING~~~ YERH~~~ T_T Why can’t they just leave the poor me alone? >.<

By the way, Mr. Michael finished our 3.7 syllabus today (",) Won’t see him until EDC/EFC, which is like in one month’s time? Man, should I say that I’m gonna miss getting insulted by him every class? Haha. Or would I miss his dirty jokes? xD "Mangkuk"! Lol

Hmm.. now I wonder again.. Should I bring my lappie to Mr. Marcus’ class tomorrow? Since he’s using one, I could use one as well, can’t I? He types so damn fast lah.. How can I write as fast as he type? Sakit tangan leh~~~ T_T

Wah.. 0226 dy.. Can’t believe I managed so much crap. No wonder I scored in 3.1 xD Hopefully I can do it in 3.5 as well! Haha! I don’t mean the prize lah. I just want nothing below 60. I mean, having 59 for 3.2 was bad enough. Gila. 59. Nearly failed man!! >.< Well, at least I passed lah. Really thought I was gonna fail dy. Those who are reading.. HEY REALLY LAH!! If not, why would I go and apologise to Mr. Teo? "Zhen de la~"

Ba.. should I go oi-oi now? Or should I read IAS 24? Hmm.. Don’t know lah.. But I’m gonna stop crapping now. Nighty night! Oh wait, I meant "Good Morning~"

hey look, people..

don’t ask me what’s up with me and my lecturers kay?
what i typed here is just how i feel lah..
i love and respect them all..
and this includes the admin stuff as well..
i mean.. hmm.. i don’t see anything wrong with this..
and even if you asked me..
hahah i wonder as well..
so don’t waste that energy.. heheh
we accountants must be "efficiency"! ;p

31032007
2118, Condo Room
Saturday

Was, and,
Am trying to do 3.5
Somehow,
this became the product:

"Why did You have to walk in that day?
Without looking, I could feel Your presense
You were there, so near yet far away
While the words I wrote came out as nonsense

I tremble so hard when I see You
But acting so cool when You are near
There are many things I’d wish You knew
Every word that follows each of my tear

By just looking at me,
You take my senses out of me
By just smiling at me,
You take the daylights out of me
I wonder if You knew of Your ability
If You knew You are driving me CRAZY!"

hehehe finally.. submitted my baby~ though i wished for every paged to be colour.. but was super lazy to wait for the printer.. so only the dividers got colour for me and the college.. for OBU then all coloured..

but before the submission.. i tell you.. wanna die ar.. i walked back and forth, back and forth and back and forth for donno how many times just to make amendments.. like a TINY WINY amendment!! sheeeesh.. but anyways.. all done liao.. so happy~~~

and the people i wanna thank are:

1) Mr Goh!
why? my mentor lah~~ kekeke.. although he is super busy with 2.6, 3.1, resit classes, new syllabus seminars, other mentees, his firm etc etc. he managed to pull it altogether and enabled me to submit my report today. though sometimes, i had to wait seriously long hours just to see him a while.. >.< but anyways.. thank you Sir! (",)
2) Peter!
why? he’s the person who’s in charged of everything about O-Boo.. kekeke so everytime also had to go "fan" him.. especially the near-presentation days.. Thank You so much for putting up with the super-mafan li-yin xD
3) Mr Teo!
why? my dearest programme director who arranged for the public speaking seminar.. although i was complaining like hell about it cause it was a "nuisance" to fit such workshops into my super-packed schedules.. but i do appreciate it as i learnt a lot and made new friends~~ thanks~

okay.. so after the submission, i went to subang parade to do some shopping for this sunday’s graduation.. scared.. just a few friends will be there.. and and and.. i wanna take pix with all the lecturers! love them soooooooo much.. kekeke can’t wait actually xD

and wanna recommend KFc alaskan burger.. so nice.. i had it for lunch.. yummieeee ;p

okay i know.. my sentences are incoherent.. just typing in short everything xD bah ciao ciao.. i think i’ll talk about sunday when i get back it =)